Friday the 7th of December, 2018 was like any other day. I had the day off to do some life admin and woke up early to get ready for the day. I knew it had been 10 days since I ovulated and because I was trying for a baby I thought “…why not? Let’s do a test!”.
I had bought pregnancy test strips from boots.ie at the same time that I bought the ovulation tests. Although we were trying for a baby, this was only the second month so I really didn’t think the test would be positive. I was also optimistically thinking “…well if it’s negative it could be because I’m testing before my period is due”. I dipped the test strip and went back to folding clothes. I forgot about it for a few minutes and then went back to check. I glanced quickly assuming it was negative but hoping it wasn’t. I only saw the control line. Just as I was about to throw in the bin, I glanced again and realised there was a very faint line next to the control line. It felt like my heart stopped. “Oh my God, oh my God!!!” I said, over and over again. My heart was pounding now and I didn’t know what to do next. I walked around my room in circles for a couple of minutes repeating, “… oh my god!! OH MY GOD!!!” and then I thought of my big sister, she knew I was trying, she had 3 kids, she’d know what to do. I called her, I was in floods of tears at that stage. “There’s a line, I did a pregnancy test and THERE’S A LINE!!”. She told me to calm down and go to the chemist (pharmacy) to get a First Response early pregnancy test and a Clearblue digital test.
I put my coat on over my pyjamas and for the first time in my adult life left the house in my pyjamas and ran a few doors down to the chemist. I picked up the tests and went to the counter. The lady serving me saw that I had been crying and assumed it was bad news. “Don’t worry love, it’ll be OK”, she said. I said “No! I’m happy, I was trying, I’m just so overwhelmed and afraid it was a false positive.” She looked so relieved, wished me luck and asked me to come back later and let her know how I got on, which was so sweet.
I went home and did the First Response test first. I had a Rachel from Friends moment while waiting the 3 minutes for the result. I was so nervous and when my alarm went off I was almost too scared to turn the test over. I realised just how much this meant to me. It was positive, definitely, I was so relieved and elated and cried some more. I followed it up with the digital Clearblue test just to be sure and sure enough the result came back “Pregnant 1-2”.
It was the happiest day of my life so far. I was so overwhelmed, scared, excited, happy, suprised, nervous… every emotion all at once. I couldn’t believe I knew this and my boyfriend didn’t. I went straight to planning how to tell him…